Well.

Well it's just hurt me so much. I know I cant blame them. Bcs it's that only me who got something to do when they all have fun together. Im not mad at all. I just hurt. Seeing all of you happy. Without me. Just without me. It's a lying if I said Im not jealous or what. Obviously, I am. So much.

Furthermore, I get sensitive too much. Lagilah buat aku terluka. Hatiku menangis tiada siapa peduli. But I glad that some of them not forget me. Like Fatini and Auni and Wani... and others too...maybe. Thankyou for not forgetting me. Im so touched when they said "Fatini missed you."

When they post the pictures... When they said they want to go back to the other day... When they talk about it again... I wonder how fun it is.

I wish I was there with them. But nahh, He knows best tho. Maybe if I joined them, something will happen. or there would be something that not gonna be fun if I was there. or someone will hurt. Bc there's 13 girls at my class. It's an odd numb so do you get it?

Ppl may said that Im kejetan emo but naaah when the whole class talked about it in group wasep, wechat, twitter, instagram and be like "ahh i miss it alr" "nak lagi" "weh best gila" and other else and there what u do is just silently hear to them and "ohh it was like that" "hahaha they must got so much fun" "how fun it was eh" hahahaha im speechless. Well you wont understand me unless you be me.

I just have to accept the fact. It's just that my heart hurt.... tears falling apart in my heart and I can hear my heart cracked up. Lol kejetan emo.

Yknow that feel? When you want to feel happy for your friends but nah it's hard to keep smiling. Bc the fact, it's hurt. But ppl said, true friends will be happy when their friends happy too. I want true friends so shouldnt I be like one too? Yea.

They keeps talk and talk and talk about it and Im getting sick. Sorry to say this. But I just hurt too much. You cant blame me tho for not joining you guys bc that's Allah's plan after all.... Bye.