How?

I dont know.
How to start?
How to end?
How to mend?
How to try?
How to react?
How to describe?
How to understand?
How to explain?
How and how?
That keeps stuck in my head.

I dont know how to start the conversation with you.
I dont know how to end the complicated things that bothered all of us.
I dont know how to mend the situation that have been rough.
I dont know how to try - everything.
I dont know how to react with all those things that happened. How should I respond? The words stuck. Speechless. I dont know how to talk. Bc the words just stuck. When I hv so much words to say, it just..sTUCK. How to express it? Just....how
I dont know how to describe my feelings bc i just dont know. wow you, Alia.
I dont know how to understand you, your words, your situation, and it sucks. How bad I am. It hurts me tho. A lot. Bc I kenot understand you well...
And I dont know how to explain to you - about my feelings, my words, my attitude, my situation, and my everything. deheq

LIKE HOWWWW

The truth is, I miss you. But I know, things wont be the same. More like never. I know you will questioning like so many many about how I talk, my words, my reaction and etc. Bc the actions never be the same like the words. But. Pls. Trust. Me. I miss you. like so damn much. I miss how we used to be so happy and share anything and everything with each other. I just miss. And somehow, I pray to Allah, I wish and I hope that things will get better. And we will be like how we used to be. Bc I hate 'stranger' word. Not exist in my own dictionary. And you are not my stranger, but my special friend. Im repeat - my special friend.

You are my bestfriend, Fifi Nazifa Izdihar Rozi. ((to me, you idk la how))

You has that one place in my heart.
I swear it's true ((read like you sing))
Bc I can never lie with my feelings.
I love you.
Ikhlas, qt Alia qt.